Memory returns of Newgrounds, now often reluctantly discarded in favor of more pressing matters.... Hello.

The last week has been trying with only my own obliviousness and absent-minded nature to blame: I left the tablet stylus behind when temporarily moving residence. That means no drawing, no release. I must evolve other forms of leech to relieve my mental abscesses. Thus, I have immersed myself once again into Neocities web development.

I'm pleased to announce our blog for all our writings, diatribes, thoughts, dreams and other assorted literary nonsense is available at: https://headberries.neocities.org/Vignettes/

Thank you for existing under my sky for now.

~Heyoka

At times the paranoia tumor injecting nauseating static onto the back of my mind becomes a voice that tells me to delete certain drawings. I will try not to. We must squash those thoughts like insects.

Quick video showcasing some of the antics from today's drawing session on the board.

Hello. I come bearing gifts... I could not curb my excitement and enthusiasm to share these pieces drawn by user eu10101 on FlockMod.

Come hang out with us and draw live on our shared canvas at NLobby4, Flockmod.com.

~ Heyoka

Hello once again. I finally return with the promised updates!

We have opened a Discord server, The Adonis Group (TAG).

The primary objective is to welcome other outsider creatives who seek solace in their artform as a form of therapy, as well as specifically prioritize meaningful engagement and feedback to all artwork shared.

Please feel free to join us and explore this bold new world with us.

(To be verified: read the contract page, create a profile in #subject-data, and await staff review. Members must be 18+)

https://discord.gg/6deqPuRm8h

I have also created a rough, minimum viable version of a Neocities site which is now linked on my profile. It is as fragmented, messy, unresponsive and chaotic as my mind... I will remedy this, eventually.

More artwork to come. Now that these major projects are behind, I can focus on updating the galleries here.

~ Heyoka

PS: Surgery has been indefinitely postponed due to unforeseen complications (posterior vitreous detachment). We are monitoring the situation, attempting to predict what new brand of nebulous, startling eye-rot this body will devise next.

Timelapse of the progress behind one of my recent pieces: Take It

Thank you for your time.

~Heyoka

Our travels have concluded and I once again find myself at my laptop in my bedroom.

Mundane reality ebbs and flows as it phases in, like swirling sediment settling in a fish bowl. I still need some time to recuperate, but activity & creative endeavors will resume soon.... Stay tuned and thank you for your patience.

New time-lapse on my YouTube channel. Thank you for your time.

~ Heyoka

Hello shimmering star-dust vessels.

What a pleasure it is to be writing to you again from the summit of my euphoria, having overcome for once after years of succumbing.

Sadly, our fun will be on a scheduled pause for a few weeks post Dec 10th. Montauk and I are travelling far away with other childhood friends to a reclusive spot where I can peel away my skin calmly without worries of mundane things not worth mentioning. We will be back by January 14th, art will resume then. We may have a few other toys and surprises by then, too.

I am also due for some substantial surgery in the weeks thereafter. I shall channel this into my creative toxic waste, so hopefully something useful comes from it -- besides relieving the pressure in my skull and potentially preserving my vision.

(Trabeculectomies and Deep Anterior Lamellar Keratoplasty).

Will update in due course.

Coherence fades along with signal. See the path forward, know your wings.

~Heyoka

Hello Newgrounds, it's time to wake up.

Awake, Alert, Oriented by person place time and event.

The etchings in my skull tell me I'm called Heyoka and the reassuring pressure intertwining my hand is my best friend, Montauk. Pleased to meet you.

// I'm a visually impaired digital cartoonist who makes art as a form of therapy, predominately drawing things which are distressing yet sincere metaphors for my experiences. Themes typically concern dehumanization, alienation and the loss of personal autonomy; a result from being the life-long subject of medical interventions and investigation. Much of the art features gore and body-horror, so please view with discretion.

My disabilities, visual and otherwise, are degenerative and therefore put a finite timespan on my artistic capabilities. I draw as often as I can while it remains possible, more or less daily.

While I occasionally produce fandom artwork, most of my pieces feature my original character (and childhood imaginary friend) 'Montauk' (Real name: Sal "Sonny" Volero). He is my connection to the world and the interpreter of my inner life.

Other interests: vintage electronics & audio equipment, robotic toys, alternative music (grunge, punk, industrial, new wave, black metal, gothic, post-punk).

This is my first foray onto the Internet in quite some time. I welcome any interaction, so please, don't be a stranger. //